Aku bukan wanita malam. Aku adalah malam yang berjenis wanita. Menggemparkan sunyi, mendebarkan sepi. Mengutuk simphoni suci. Aku bersahabat dengan lautan padam. Berjabat kapten pada pasukan petang. Luruh dalam kegelapan. Menyatu padu oleh dendam. Lakuku seperti angin, kadang lembut, lebih sering menghempas. Nafasku mengalir pelan, tenang tanpa henti, belum.
Lalu bersama takdir kau menyapaku. Tidak tahukah kamu, nasibmu sedang buruk jika matamu berkesempatan jatuh dalam pesonaku. Godaan sang malam. Sayangnya, kamu lebih manusia seperti yang kumungkinkan. Keras kapala. Tidak butuh waktu lama untuk membawamu ke-kelabu-an. Sungguh, kamu bisa saja hilang arah.
Tapi wanita ini sedang tidak ingin bermain-main. Dia sedang bergumul dengan waktu, seperti malam. Maka bisikan itu datang bersama angin, angin malam. "Berhentilah, sebelum kamu semakin menjadi gila". Perhatikan klausanya, sebuah peringatan bukan. Saranku adalah patuhi, selagi belum menggila. Sebab tidak pernah ada yang tahu bagaimana malam menghampirimu.
This was just a second after I found you in my dream. Again and again, it's really sick, like a classic nightmare. Maybe by writing this joke, I can avoid facing that horrifying moment anymore.
BalasHapusMore than a decade has passed, yet the scar still brings pain sometimes.
The last time I saw you, on that anecdotal night, I could totally figure it out before it even started. Haha, I’m not a loser, and I won’t be. If you gave me the same chance as that night to come to your wedding, you know I’d be there tho.
I even got my degree just to prove that I was more than capable. Haha.
You probably know what scars are. It’s funny—during many difficult times, I would always remember you and hope for your 'sorry.'
Time-flies, and now I realize the false-belief was mine, thinking you were as perfect as I dreamed.
I can’t even imagine now how you saw the future—walking away from the old me was truly the right thing to do.
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But yeah, let’s start over.
Humans just need to push the big rock to the top of the mountain and finish their dishes; nothing else really matters in the end.
Evento we had a different slice of cake,
is there a chance you will write again?
At least I can meet you in the parallel universe.